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Thoughtful Vs Overthinking

Have you ever been told you overthink things? Maybe you’ve even said it to yourself. For a long time, I thought of overthinking as a negative habit—something to rein in, to control. But lately, I’ve been questioning that label. What if what I’m doing isn’t always overthinking? What if it’s something else entirely?

Sometimes, my thoughts take me on incredible journeys. I’ll look at a problem or an idea and turn it over in my mind, examining it from different angles like a gemstone catching the light. I find patterns, connections, and nuances that aren’t immediately obvious. This kind of thinking feels expansive. It’s like stepping into a field with no fences, where I’m free to explore as far as my curiosity will take me.

Other times, my thoughts aren’t so kind. They loop endlessly, dragging me down rabbit holes of self-doubt or indecision. Instead of exploring possibilities, I’m stuck spinning my wheels, replaying the same worries or what-ifs. This kind of thinking feels like being trapped—a narrowing of focus instead of an expansion.

So, what’s the difference? Why does one kind of thinking feel like freedom while the other feels like a trap? For me, it comes down to two things: intention and outcome.

When my thinking is exploratory, there’s an underlying sense of joy or curiosity. I’m not trying to solve anything or prove anything; I’m just following the threads of my thoughts to see where they lead. It’s like having a conversation with myself, where every perspective adds something new to the story. The outcome isn’t always a neat answer, but it’s enriching. I learn something, or I gain a deeper understanding of myself or the world around me.

But when my thinking becomes overthinking, it’s driven by fear—fear of making the wrong decision, fear of failure, fear of not being enough. Instead of being open-ended, it’s circular. I’m not exploring; I’m rehearsing scenarios or trying to control outcomes. And the outcome, more often than not, is exhaustion.

If you’re like me, you might do both. You might have moments where your mind feels like a playground and others where it feels like a prison. And that’s okay. Both are part of who you are. The trick, I think, is learning to recognize when your thoughts are serving you and when they’re not.

Here’s what’s helped me:

  1. Pause and check in with yourself. Ask, Am I enjoying this thought process? Am I moving toward clarity or deeper confusion?
  2. Name what’s driving your thoughts. Is it curiosity, or is it fear? If it’s fear, acknowledge it without judgment and gently redirect your focus.
  3. Set boundaries for your mind. Give yourself permission to think deeply, but also give yourself permission to step away when it becomes too much. Sometimes, the best answers come when you’re not actively searching for them.
  4. Celebrate your gift for nuance. In a world that often demands black-and-white answers, your ability to see the gray areas is a strength. It allows you to empathize, to create, and to approach life with a richness that others might miss.

So, the next time someone tells you that you overthink things, maybe you can smile and say, “Actually, I’m just a thoughtful person.” And if your thoughts start to feel like too much, remind yourself that you can always step back. The playground will still be there when you’re ready to return.

Not all thinking is overthinking. Sometimes, it’s just you being exactly who you are—curious, reflective, and wonderfully complex.

Why Now Is the Right Time to Share Your Story

Embracing Vulnerability and New Beginnings

Today, I’m celebrating my 37th birthday, and it feels like the perfect moment to share something special. After seven years of silence, I’m finally returning to my art and creative expression. It’s been a long and winding journey to get here, filled with ups and downs, but I’m excited to be back, ready to open my heart and share my story with you.

It’s not always easy to express what’s been buried inside for so long, but sometimes, there’s a moment when you feel a gentle nudge, a sense that it’s time to let those feelings flow. Today, I want to talk about why now might be the perfect time for you to share your story, too, and how embracing this openness can lead to new beginnings, healing, and connection.

1. Letting Your Emotions Flow

We all have moments when our emotions feel like they’re bubbling up, ready to spill over. These moments can be overwhelming, but they’re also a sign that you’re deeply connected to how you feel. When your emotions are flowing freely, it might be the perfect time to express what’s inside. Sharing your story can be a beautiful and cathartic way to let those emotions out, allowing you to find clarity and peace. It doesn’t have to be perfect or polished—what matters is that it’s real, and it’s yours.

2. Opening Doors to Connection

There’s something magical about starting fresh, especially when it comes to sharing your personal journey. When you open up, you’re not just releasing your own thoughts and feelings; you’re also inviting others to see a part of you they might not have known. This openness can lead to deeper connections, understanding, and even new opportunities. Sometimes, sharing your story creates a ripple effect, touching others in ways you might never have imagined. If you’ve been feeling that inner urge to speak your truth, this could be the beginning of something meaningful—not just for you, but for those who hear it.

3. Healing Through Vulnerability

There’s a certain strength in allowing yourself to be vulnerable. It’s not always easy to expose the parts of yourself that you’ve kept hidden, but doing so can be incredibly healing. When you share your story, you’re giving yourself permission to release any lingering emotions, to forgive, and to move forward. At the same time, your openness can bring comfort to others who might be going through something similar. It’s a way of saying, “You’re not alone.” And that simple act of sharing can create a space of compassion and understanding for everyone involved.

4. How to Share Your Story

Follow Your Heart: Trust your emotions and instincts. If you feel ready to share, honor that feeling. There’s a reason it’s there, and allowing yourself to express it can be incredibly liberating.

Seek Out Supportive Spaces: Whether it’s through writing, speaking, or creating, find outlets that make you feel safe and heard. Surround yourself with people who will listen without judgment and encourage you to be your true self.

Embrace the Imperfections: Your story doesn’t have to be flawless. What matters most is the honesty and authenticity behind it. Sometimes, the rawest, most unfiltered moments are the ones that resonate the deepest.

The Beauty of Sharing Your Story

Sharing your story is an act of courage. It’s about embracing your vulnerability, letting your emotions flow, and allowing yourself to be seen for who you truly are. When you follow your heart and speak your truth, you might just discover a sense of freedom and connection that you never expected. And who knows? Your story might be exactly what someone else needs to hear, reminding them that they, too, have the strength to be open, honest, and brave.

So, if you’ve been wondering whether now is the right time, consider this your sign. Let your feelings flow, trust in your journey, and share your story with the world. You never know whose heart you might touch in the process.

Love,
Timea

Rebuilding Self-Confidence

It’s been a while since I last posted, and I’m happy to be back, ready to share some thoughts with you. Today, I want to talk about something that I think many of us struggle with: self-confidence. Regaining it can feel like an uphill journey, especially when life throws unexpected challenges our way. But I’ve learned that confidence isn’t something we have to force or chase; it’s something we can gently nurture by reconnecting with who we truly are.

Here are a few insights that I hope will inspire you to rediscover your self-confidence and see yourself in a brighter light:

1. Finding Your Inner Light

Self-confidence often fades when we lose touch with the things that make us shine. It’s easy to forget how special we are when life gets tough, but there’s always a part of you that glows brightly, even in the darkest times. Reconnecting with this light might mean taking a step back and finding out what brings you joy, purpose, and energy. It could be a hobby, a passion, or simply a quiet moment to reflect. By focusing on what inspires you, hope begins to grow, and your confidence follows.

2. Embracing Your Authenticity

Let’s be honest, being yourself isn’t always easy. But it’s the only way to build real, lasting confidence. True self-assurance comes from accepting who you are, flaws and all, and letting others see the real you. When you embrace your unique quirks, talents, and even your vulnerabilities, you naturally begin to radiate a quiet, genuine confidence. It’s a journey, but the more you show up as your true self, the more at ease you’ll feel.

3. Allowing Yourself to Heal

We all have scars, and sometimes, they affect how we see ourselves. Rebuilding confidence often involves a bit of healing—taking time to care for your emotional well-being. This could mean journaling, meditating, or even talking things through with someone you trust. It’s okay to ask for help if you need it, and it’s okay to be patient with yourself. Self-confidence is not something you can rush; it unfolds slowly as you continue to be gentle and kind to yourself.

4. Practical Steps to Boost Confidence

  • Celebrate Small Wins: It doesn’t have to be a grand achievement; even the smallest victories deserve recognition. Each step you take is progress, and acknowledging that helps build momentum.
  • Be Kind to Yourself: Pay attention to your inner voice. When you find yourself being overly critical, try to soften those thoughts. You wouldn’t speak that way to a friend, so don’t do it to yourself either.
  • Engage in What You Love: Doing things you’re passionate about can work wonders for your confidence. It helps remind you of your strengths and the things that make you feel alive.

5. Reconnecting with Nature

I’ve always found peace in nature, and maybe you will too. Whether it’s a walk by the water, a hike in the forest, or just gazing up at the stars, nature has a way of calming the mind and restoring balance. Taking time to reflect—through meditation, journaling, or even just a quiet moment—can help you reconnect with yourself and find clarity. When you understand yourself better, confidence begins to grow naturally.

The Path Forward

Rebuilding self-confidence isn’t about becoming someone else; it’s about finding your way back to who you’ve always been. It takes hope, patience, and a willingness to embrace yourself, even on the days it feels difficult. By nurturing your inner light, healing old wounds, and honoring your true self, you’ll find that your confidence starts to shine, quietly and beautifully. Remember, you are already more than enough, just as you are, and this journey toward self-confidence is simply about uncovering what was always there.

It’s good to be back, and I’m excited to continue this journey with you!

P.S.: My MidJourney days are now over and I’m finally back painting! ;)

Love,

Timea

I’m back! Playing with Midjourney Ai

7 years have passed since my last post and I don’t even know where to begin… What is even sadder is that I can’t even remember when did I hold a brush or a pencil in my hand. I used to love creating art so much. I never thought I will stop one day. But life happened and I have been swept away from my colorful, fairy-tale world into a deep well of sorrow, where I was met with illness, chronic pain, and the death of my mom. And I simply stopped imagining and creating. I still feel sad writing these lines, but I think it’s time to leave the past behind and come back to life. Even with a “dysfunctioning” body, I must go on.

Self-portrait made with Midjourney Ai.

But I still struggle to find the space and mindset to sit down and create at home. So last week I went to look at a studio where I wished to start over, but the women co-renting the place didn’t think I was a good fit and they gave the space to another girl. I was crushed that day and felt so alone, but something happened. The next day while surfing the web, I don’t exactly know how, but I came across Midjourney, an artificial intelligence software for generating images from textual descriptions. I decided to give it a try by writing texts of sad poems and experiences, hence my mood. And it blew my mind.

These were one of the first images I “created”.

And then something “clicked” and my imagination woke up from its long slumber. So I just kept going and started learning to better control the outcomes. I’m aware that Ai art is highly controversial and many people have strong opinions about it. But right now this is what my soul needs. It’s an incredible tool to help the creative juices flow. And I have so many ideas I want to try. I will be posting them here.

These are two mandala concepts I prompted the Ai to create for me:

And then I started to dress up faeries and create cute kawaii stuff and sugar skull creatures. :) So yeah… I am enjoying Midjourney a lot. I believe that discovering Ai art helped me to restore the creative flow. And now the journey begins.

With love,

Timea

Second week of #100daysofbliss

So I’ve continued selecting quotes and images and combined them together into simple reminders to stay optimistic and keep on loving life and the world.  Some days I think of a phrase or an author and search the internet for the quotes that feel “right. Some days I simply remember a specific wisdom and write it down. Here are this weeks seven:

trustindreams


imaginationismore


confuciusquote


lifeisplay


nofacts


theonlywaytohaveafriend


smile-breathe

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Love,

Timea